Okay...new update time.

    Not a lot has been going on here lately, unless of course you call school and work busy. Things are going well...to keep from being asked about my back constantly, it's fine, I'm fine, we're fine. I go in for another check up on my birthday, which by the way is in 15 days. I'm broke, and I just filed my taxes and the coffee shop I worked at here didn't take the right amount of deductions out so now I owe the state of California $8 and a little over $100 for the rest of them. This is crap! I DON"T EVEN MAKE ENOUGH TO BE ABLE TO PAY TAXES!!!! Oh ya...to top it off...I had a TON of fraud going on in my  B of A account starting in August of '05, so I was given a notice two days ago by a collection agency. Apparently a check bounced due to insufficient funds and my credit card didn't catch it (they were connected for that very purpose) because the stupid people who were fraudulently using my account had maxed the dumb card out. Suffice to say, I never recieved a notice from the bank telling me the check had bounced so now I have to deal with a stupid collection agencey!!! Curse this! Okay...so I guess I lied earlier when I said not a lot had been going on. I just didn't realize it until I wrote it. Oh well! Just pray for me okay? Thanks.

Love you guys,

         Sarah

Okay...good news and bad news.

 Bad news:

            I'm going to have back problems the rest of my life.

Good news:

            I can go back to dancing and nannying my baby! Oh ya...just a few weeks of PT and remembering to listen to my body. I'm meeting with a doctor about my knee in a week or so, pray for that. Also, no new damage that can be seen, I don't need surgury now and it looks as though my back isn't getting any worse. The doctor told me that I was too young to be telling me I am not allowed to do certain activities and sent me on my merry way! Whoo Hoo!!! Thank you Jesus (the Man upstairs, not my bf).

Hey you guys,

      So, yes, it's been a few weeks since I last posted, but this time I have a legitimate excuse. I have been in the hospital. Most of you know about my back problem. Well, last Wednesday I hurt it again and wound up at the hospital until Sunday. They actually tried to kill me. I found out I'm allergic to more than just morphine, they had to give me two allergy bracelets. Also, my body stopped breathing on it's own ( I was so doped up I had to conciously think about breathing). Jesus got there just as that was happening and called the nurses in. They checked my vitals and said everything was fine, but the medicine was knocking me out. Jesus had to give me painful stimulants to keep me awake so I would breathe and they didn't think that was a problem. He asked if they would hook me up to the oxygen, but they said they wouldn't do it without doctor's orders. He had to argue with them for 10 minutes and finally hooked it up himself (EMT's make good boyfriends). The doctor I had was an ass. His name is Dr. Wong and before I actually went into the hospital the joke was that he was the "wong" doctor....(bad joke, I know, but it turned out to be true). He wouldn't listen to me at all. I told him I was having bad reactions to the medications he had me on and they weren't doing anything for my pain level, but he told me he didn't know why I would be having reactions and basically told me I was making it up. Jerk! Almost killed me, not to mention the fact that the nurses were ignoring me. So...now I have a new doctor, who actually listened to me and got me some real help and pain relief. Where I stand now, two bulging disks hitting my syadick (?) nerve, two more rounds of epidural shots (either that or pretnizone, and we all know what that does to me MOOD SWINGS), and I'm in a wheel chair at school, and crutches or a walker at home depending on the pain level. So pray for me that the next two rounds of shots work or I'm going in for back surgury number two. Oh ya...I'm not allowed to dance (I was actually asked to concider giving it up permanently) so please don't bring it up right now. Also, because of the hospital expenses, I'm not going to be able to come home for David's wedding, and I have to stay here for spring break so I can catch up in my classes (my teachers were very helpful and understanding).

So...instead of being just plain too lazy to post, I have an actual reason. I love you guys and miss you all and I'm really bummed about not being able to come home. Other than all that crappy stuff I'm doing okay. Jesus got the job at CDF so now we have to actually talk about the realities of him jumping into the middle of forest fires from a helicopter with out any water and just his tools to help him put out the fire. Oh ya...my mommy came down to take care of me so pray that we get along the whole time.

Okay...I'm going to try to do some reading for school. Mwah!!!

For Nikkie: "Yada, yada, yada."

Okay,

        So before any of you have a heart attack...I'm actually giving an update post. Yes, I know...hard to believe, but a class was canceled so I have some time to goof around. Alright...I know I should use this time wisely and study like the good college student I am...but sometimes you just need a mental heath break!

  Life has been completely INSANE for the past few months. For those of you who know my "past" know about Cody (insert your cousin joke here__________). During the holidays we tried the whole dating thing. Didn't exactly work out for a few reasons, one being that he will always be second best (you have my number if you want the details). On that subject, I've been seeing a local boy here in town. Ironically, his name is Jesus, yes...he is Mexican, or as my dad refers to him, a MexiPino (Mexican Filippino). He is a firefighter and goes in on the eighth to interview with the California Department of Forestry (CDF). Basically, he and a bunch of our other friends want to go fight forest fires six months out of the year. He's a good guy, Christian, we run in the same circles...whatever. However, (and he doesn't read this so I'm gonna say it) I'm freaking out. You guys all know that I have the tendency to run. Well...we have been together officially since Janurary 1. I'm wanting to run. The problem is that everytime I think I'm over a certain somebody I see a picture of them or hear something about them or even hear something about their type of job and they pop into my mind. I can't help it. I wish the stupid jerk would just let me know one way or the other. Seriously, how fair am I being to myself and to Jesus? He is a wonderful guy, and I can actually see myself with him, but in the back of the mind...jerk face is there (he's not really a jerk, but I just try to be mad at him for making me think about him and never being satisfied with anybody else).

    On a different note, I'm going to school full time. Classes are fun, English, History, Phsychology. But not just any phsychology, Human Sexuality. Yes...it's all about sex. The teacher faked an orgasm in class (purly demonstrating women's ability to do so on command), and on Tuesday gave us two ways to make a guy go longer (no...I'm not going to share that here). The class is really interesting for me. At times it's really hard because it challenges a lot of what I believe in as a Christian. How do I take what is being said, even in terms of homosexuality, and knowing what I do and be able to evaluate it all? It is a constant struggle in my head. On average I almost walk out of that class two times a day. Oh well...it makes for interesting dinner conversation.

   I'm nannying for a five month old little girl three days a week. She is so sweet, the problem though...is that she is actually starting to teeth right now. Yesterday, I couldn't put her down. She was dead asleep, but screaming her head off. Oh ya...to make matters worse...her parents are switching from breast milk to formula...and the past two weeks it has been hit and miss on Maison taking the formula bottle. It's good birth control right? I want to be a mommy so badly, but I deffinantly know I am not ready for that right now.

Last week was the week from hell. My computer crashed and deleted ALL of my papers for school (Three of which were due later that day), I had a horrible migrane and was puking because of it, and then I literally flushed my cell phone down the toilet. (Can all of you guys email me your numbers again?)

Other than that, things are going well. The salsa stuff is really taking off right now, we are going from one salsa party a month to one every Friday. I've also been asked to start singing at a local club. I'm going to be 21 in 50 days! One more thing, I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to come up for the wedding as planned. If I can afford it I will. Keep your fingers crossed. Or...if as an early birthday present everyone wanted to pitch in a few bucks to fly me out I wouldn't mind.

Alright, I'm going to try and be better about posting. I miss you guys and I hope to hear from you soon.

Hey you guys,

       I know I need to update, but tonight's not the night. I love you all!